Don’t think too much; and don’t think too little.



“You grow the most at the edge of your comfort zone.”

“Love people well; don’t just give them your leftovers.” 

I love leaders meetings because we all take little snippets of our own experiences and bring them to the table to share! Well challenged. 

Hahahaha. Really though, there are soooo many new songs I want to learn, many teddies and blankets I want to crochet, many foodies I want to draw/paint and many vlogs that I want to edit. There aren’t enough hours in a day lul.

It’s all good though, because TUU finally finished today *sobs* ; so I can squeeze more time out of my evenings mwahahahaahaaaaaaaaAaaaaa. Lol I need to sleep i’m going crrrrrrrray-zzzzayy.

P.s. I’m really happpppppppyuuuuuu ~ keeping you in ma prayers! 🤙🏼

Speak up.

I’m not one for composing my thoughts into words, but that’s exactly what Matthew’s talk did for me today.

Speaking up for your faith.

Some people are under the impression that ‘Christians’ are out to convert people in order to either be a ‘good Christian’ or to gain something in Heaven. I can’t speak for everyone, but personally speaking, that could not be more wrong.

Speaking up for my faith is actually one of the biggest struggles I have. I am not ashamed of being a child of God, but I am worried that if I speak up for my faith, people will mentally label me as the ‘religious girl who is trying to convert people’. Moreover, there are just so many misconceptions of ‘Christianity’ out there, it would take too much of me to explain myself.

Today, Matthew summarised my thoughts into two sentences:

We do not speak up for our faith in order to be ‘good Christians’. We speak up for our faith in order to save lives.

Yeah, that might sound cliché, but I could not have put it better myself. I’m always afraid and reluctant to touch on this topic around non-Christian friends, because I’m worried they’ll think I’m trying to change them. I’m worried that they’ll reject me or disrespect my feelings (based on experience). It actually takes so much of me to talk about this topic seriously.

The only reason I’d ever go out of my way to share my faith is if I cared about that person enough; enough to risk getting judged by them. I completely understand that not everyone gets it and listening to stories about something you don’t believe in might be uncomfortable. Trust me, I know exactly how it feels, because I was once someone who judged Christians.

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It just really breaks my heart to know that someone I love and care about might not be going to a good place after death. We are all really comfortable living in the present, aren’t we? Of course, it’s a good thing, but the present is going to end one day and I’m worried that I missed a chance to save someone I love. I missed the opportunity to share a piece of God’s love… because of my pride and fear of judgement.
It never really occurred to me how afraid I was to speak up until we went on holiday and the topic of Christianity came up. Everyone had different opinions; all of which I respected but some of which I did not agree with. Instead of saying anything, I just sat in silence and pretended to laugh it off. Even S jokingly said something, which I really respected him for… considering he said he’s not even 100% sure about it. I went to bed with a heavy heart that night.

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I really wish people knew that ‘Christianity’ is not about a set of rules, judgemental, ‘clean’ and crazy people singing to thin air. Simply put, the basis of Christianity is love. God is love. That is all you need to know. It is based on love that makes you smile from your heart. It is based on love that also makes you love others in a way that you can’t explain. It makes you love because God loves all of us equally regardless of whether we are Christian or not. 

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I wish people knew that Christians are not squeeky clean people who goto fancy buildings and preach as if they’re superior. As a matter of fact, I’m a Christian because my profile is dirty. I need God because I screw up every single day. I’m never, ever good enough but that’s exactly why I need God. God forgives me for things I can’t even forgive myself for. 
When I say I’m a Christian, I’m not saying I’m clean and ‘good’, I am saying that I’m dirty and screw up, hence why I need Jesus in my life.

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For me, Christianity was never a religion. Christianity was always a relationship with God. To know that creator of the WORLD is my best friend and loves me as His child. That is pretty freaking crazy and sometimes I still can’t get my head around that.
I am not gonna sugar-coat it. I believe that God is real but there are days when I have questions. As much as I wish it was, my faith is not always lit and there are times when I feel like God is not with me. I question whether God is really present in my life. I once thought, “How scary would it be… if I believed God was real all my life, to find out He is not at the end of it.” That actually sends shivers down my back.
However, I take a step back and I think… all my thoughts… all my feelings… everyone’s personalities… how we all love each other… how everyone is unique and individual… has different passions… fears.. hopes.. loves.. they simply cannot be an accident. It cannot be a result of chemistry alone.

I believe in Science and I also believe that the Big bang occurred. In fact, because I believe in Science,  I believe in God. Science happened, yeah but Why?

For me, Science is How the world came about; but God is Why the world came about.

I look at a flower, even it’s DNA is so complicated, yet our human bodies are even more extraordinary. One thing out of order and we could be all gone. How could something so precise that fits together perfectly… be due to a coincidence?

Why does everyone enjoy scenery with Green grass & blue skies? Why do we all enjoy looking at the stars on a clear night? Why do we think beaches and clear waters are pretty? That’s pretty crazy innit… we were all made to appreciate His natural creations.

Science is real; but facts are not actually facts. Facts are merely agreed human opinion.

(Quote: Celine LOL) All of this is really more than enough to convince me that there is more to life than what we see.

Here’s to speaking up for your faith more, Katie Chan! Here’s to doing it bravely, yet gently, in the most considerate way, and out of love only. Here’s to sharing God’s love through action, and not merely words alone. Here’s to saving lives.


New beginnings!

It’s time! I haven’t put alot of thought into this new job since I got the offer, but now that it’s actually happening, I’m feeling a bit nervous! 

80% of me is basically worried about my driving in the country roads. The other 20% of me is worried about whether the people are nice!

One of the customers at the restaurant reassured me today when she said she spoke to a girl who works there and she loves it! So that’s good news.

I guess I’m there to learn new things and save up money! They’re paying me and teaching me new things so I can’t complain at all! 

I’m excited to be a big girl and finally give back to our parents! I’m excited to start a routine! I’m excited to bring lunch everyday. I’m excited to learn skills that I lack! 

Everything will be new, maybe stressful, but if God has brought me here (even though I wanted to stay in London this year TT), then He will carry me through it! 

This is such a deja vu moment of my uni choices. I got the uni I didn’t want… but if I had to choose again, I’d choose QM all over. Not because I enjoyed the course,  nor was the uni teaching system amazing. 

I’d choose the same thing because I had some of the most fun, joyful and independent memories of my life there. When I discovered Whitechapel fruit market, I knew God chose the right place for me.

More importantly, I met some very special people I wouldn’t have elsewhere! Although there was a point in time last year, when I thought I didn’t have any real friends in London and I thought London life was too lonely… Never have I missed my besties, J and my fam so much in my life LOL.

BuuUuuUuut actually in hindsight, I was very fortunate indeed to have Squadz and my med girls as my comfort blanket in uni. I wouldn’t have had it any other way. Typing this makes me want to go back btw LOL. 

This post has gone really off topic and I should really sleeeeep. 

Goodnight, world! 

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